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My little sister got engaged tonight. I am happy for her bc her fiance is wonderful (even tough he is older than me)
when i got married my sister didnt come bc she was too busy with rush week. before than my sister and i were unsperable, after we didnt talk for 2 years later…to this day i can only stand her in bits and piece. she ended up not pledging. but still wasn’t forced by my parent to come to my wedding.
my dad and step mom yelled at me all the time for picking a date that my sister couldn’t come do (how the heck was i spossed to know!?!?!) even though it was VERY important date to get married on….it was my mom’s birthday (she died when i was 7) my parents didn’t start beng civil to me for after a year later.
I was forced to miss my own 18th birthday surprise party for her middle school bad concert…she not forced to miss anythig for my wedding. I decided that day I will not ever go to her wedding…why should I have to go to hers everything if she doesnt have to even come to my wedding (she never came to a band concert either)
I know my parents are going get mad and never talk to me again…bc everythig has always been my fault….
I know I should be the bigger person..blah blah blah. But she made the decision not to have me come to her wedding the day she decided rush was more important than her sisters wedding. And my parents made the decision that they have rediculaous double stands they day they decided not to force her
sorry to vent but I’ve been dreading this day….and i feel like a horrible person.

**morning**
talked to my dad this morning and he’s telling my i need to forget about it and be the bigger person. HELLO….NO!!!! I can’t forget that my sister, then best friend, and maid of honor missed my wedding and I’m spossed to suck it up and go to hers!?!?

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